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TOHSINYING.yzanne *]]
attached & unavaliable *]]
Going 16 soon *]]
17 sep 90 *]]
Naval base secondary *]]
Food & Nutrition *]]
hand chimes *]]
i love and am loved *]]
gaga over uu *]]
crazy for uu *]]
hyper passive *]]
easily low too *]]
smile *]]
i`m happy with what i have ^^*]]

[x] to love and to be loved - }}
[x] to be cherished & doted - }}
to be understood - }}
[x] not to think too much - }}
no one nothing will stop me - }}
[x] not to be yixiangqingyuan - }}
[x] be cared and concerned - }}
no heartbreaks - }}
[x] not be cheated - }}
[x] not to be zhizuoduoqing - }}
[x] be missed - }}
no medication - }}
w 900 i - }}
N 80 - }}
MP3 - }}
2 GB MMC for w900i - }}
plastic cover for w550i - }}
new headset for w550i - }}
new pierce - }}

Jessica aka kakacrunch }}
Jayven aka toot^kia `baby }}
YeeKuan aka Angeline `mei }}
shaun aka kai xin guo }}
KY- aka fei mao }}
Val 09 aka cOwkimOo `kor }}
k-zai aka heimawangzi }}
Alison aka CrabisOn }}
Candy aka konghuilian }}
Jia wei aka lavanderr `nanny }}
Fanne aka Fannanna }}
kelson aka lemon boy }}
Rainy aka bbaby`x }}
Vashonz`14 aka xBabYx TigGeR }}
sinying`s happiness }}
What i did, for love.. }}

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Here to update my blog liao.
haha.
sorry ah.
like longlong time nv update liao hor?
too obsesssss liao.
with Maple Story.
last time ppl intro me play when the game juz started.
but i play gunbound. hais.
now den start.
but nvm ^______^

Oh yah !
me and dylan hao hao liao.
i read it jux now. so sadistic sial =________=
hiak hiak.
more bites ! haha
si dylan! nii gan bu yao wo wo jiu sha le nii!!! =P
haha.
i like the way u teng wo.
... like the way u call me in the morning and say ' wake up wake up wake up wake up wake up'
haha.
i like the way u are loh.
so u don`t need to change anything lah k.
juz be who you are lohs.
hehes.
hen rou ma leh!
ok la. don`t say liao.
like long time nv take neos with fanne liao leh
next time go take hao ma?
wan kai xue liao. =(
i wan my holidays~
lalala.
ok la.
i will update next time.hehehe.
dat`s when i`m not playing Maple like now!
la la la~~

2nd mth liao.
hao kuai wor.
^_____^
dar dar.
ilu*
hiak hiak.
muackx~
i n . l a l a l a n d . w i t h . m y . t i g g e r . b a o . b a o .
s o . n i c e . a n d . w a r m .
i l u *

1:53 PM

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I asked u if u wanted time to seperate us.
no reply.
i dont wanna break up.
but,
u hanged up my call.
u dun do dat last time do u?
i dun wan u to leave either.
i`m gonna go crazziee.
u`re typing 'hahaha' and 'lol' with tears in yr eyes.
i can tell.
u lost yr words?
i lost mine.
but,
u dont noe.
i`ve too lost my mind.
yeekuan is angry bout me.
my mom doesnt care.
my dad goes 'lalala' whenever my mom said something.
my sister is annoying me.
my life had gone all mixed up.
and now,
finally,
eu*..

my tears had dried.
no longer dried in my eyes.
they`re at the sides of my mouth.
cant u feel it?
there it goes again.

i hate ur display pictures.
mayb we shld tok.
but when i saw yr screen in msn.
my eyes and fingers went all numb.
they just dun move.
i cant type.
my mind`s black.
there`s nth to even tell me wat to do with this.
situation like this had nv shown up.

if u will be happier without me.
no more stress from me.
no more bites and scares and cuts.
i dun wanna be yr bitch.
i feel dat it`s someone else.
dont mention about tigers,
i hate them.
they chase after me,
ate my heart.

i saw it in her* blog.
i felt jealous.
why are my hands so itchy!
last tym, i clicked on xiao x** `s profile.
i feel the same.
now,
why mus my hands click on 'it' on the blog?

it all feels the same.
once stupid.
forever bennuren.

nii chong lai mei you zhe me dui wo.
zhe shi di yi ci.
cold.





s h a t t e r e d . l o n e l i n e e s .
l a l a l a n d . c o l d . c o l d .

1:42 AM

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HAHAHAHAHA!
I LOVE MY HOUSE.
WAN WAD WILL HAVE WAD DE LEII

my hse so nice.
wan suicide no penknife.
wan 'zhi xie' no plaster oso LOH!
wan encouragement oso dun have.
wan medcine oso dont have.
wan wad oso cant have de!! wadda fuking hse is this!

all right! i know it`s me. ok fine i got nth to say!!
just fuk off my wrold!
and den dont tok to me!
i hate u!
all of u!
ALL OF U!

pts isn`t just a name...
pts is wad?
part tym stead..
if u have pts wan a real stead for wad?
ok.
i shall say nomore.
jus a name?
ok.
let it be a name den.

why u wan pian wo.
i noe u got cry.
got got got got!
i noe it de.
i realliee dunno wad i doing.
i realliee reallie veri tired of all these things.

but i dun wanna just break up ok!
if u wan i got nth to say.
rem what i told u?
dat nite?
do it.
i`ll get the hint.














alone`aside.
l a l a l a n d . s o . c o l d . t o n i g h t .
b r r . . .

10:48 PM

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Sorriee..

sorriee for angrying at the wrong time.
sorriee for making eu* worried ?.
sorriee for not wishing eu* luck on time.
sorriee for off-ing my hp n din see jess`s sms.
sorriee for causing eu* to lose yr bball match.

"i noe dat hoping for time to change back isn`t the solution.
or shld i say, there isn`t any solution?
i`m getting kinda stressed up now.
it`s not eu*
it`s just me.
my family members looked down on mi.
now, i`ve caused eu* this.
just let it all end.
realliee too tired to carriee on life.
i noe curving myself isn`t the way to solve things.
but wad else is?
not to worry bout me.
cos there isn`t a need to.
left alone.
in the dark dark nite.
alone in the dark and lonely nite."

shuo zhe xie you yong mah?
ru guo zhen de you shi guang chuan shuo ji hiu hao le.
ru guo ni zhen de yao zhou huo shi hen wo de hua.
qiu qiu ni bie gao shu wo.
rang wo man man de fa xian ni de li qu ba.

wo zhi dao shi wo xiao qi.
wo mei yong.
ni men ye bu xu yao ma wo ba?
shi,wo shi bai jia nu.
shi,wo shi ben.
shi,wo shi mei you yong.
shi,wo hua qian ru liu shui.
na you zhe me yang?
nan dao wo jiu bu shi ren ma.
wo jiu bu shi ni men qing shen de ma?

u brought me in to this cold cold world.
now dat eu* wanna me to leave.
wad did i do to deserve all these?
or am i just a sad loner.
stress and depression and brought me into further mistake.
i really hate myself.
i hate u even more.

6:17 PM

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Alot of things happen leii..
yeekuan`s in the hospital.
coz of stomach ulcer.
tml laser OP to remove it.
she dont wan us to go visit.
hmms.

Dylan Bibola.
dats wad he says.
hmms.
i think stress bahs.
it`s ok.
dont be sorry dar dar.

my parents.
they always keep mii at home for no reason.
unless i bug them like hell?
hmms*.

i went k-box todae.
with dar dar.
i saw olinda on my way to taka.
she is cool now.
not plump.
slim.

valerie came my hse for dinner.
mommiee cook chicken rice todae.
nice wor!
hmms.

after dat i went cwp with fanne. and val
buy shoes.and shirt? and pants?
she spent sho much.
i heart pain fer her too.
but think she will look good in dat outfit.
she going malaysia.
reduce stress.haha. (if she have?)

good luck for yeekuan`s op tml.
i`m tired. =)

hope dat dar dar`s curfew will end soon.
hmms.
tata.


l a l a l a n d
o I N k - i e E & m O o - i e E

11:43 PM

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