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[x] to love and to be loved - }}
[x] to be cherished & doted - }}
to be understood - }}
[x] not to think too much - }}
no one nothing will stop me - }}
[x] not to be yixiangqingyuan - }}
[x] be cared and concerned - }}
no heartbreaks - }}
[x] not be cheated - }}
[x] not to be zhizuoduoqing - }}
[x] be missed - }}
no medication - }}
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MP3 - }}
2 GB MMC for w900i - }}
plastic cover for w550i - }}
new headset for w550i - }}
new pierce - }}

Jessica aka kakacrunch }}
Jayven aka toot^kia `baby }}
YeeKuan aka Angeline `mei }}
shaun aka kai xin guo }}
KY- aka fei mao }}
Val 09 aka cOwkimOo `kor }}
k-zai aka heimawangzi }}
Alison aka CrabisOn }}
Candy aka konghuilian }}
Jia wei aka lavanderr `nanny }}
Fanne aka Fannanna }}
kelson aka lemon boy }}
Rainy aka bbaby`x }}
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What i did, for love.. }}

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Happy fourth mth~


My 4th mth le leh. lol.
=]
went calerie hse. wait for her put bag. lol.
den after dat i went out with my dear bear bear =__=. lol.
went para para. with shaun and one of his church friens. joel.
joel played parapara style. nice.
shaun? same style like last time. the funny old man style. =__= lol.
but this time. he added in the 'washing of hair'..
haha~ it was funny.=]
my day was fine.
when i woke up. it was so fresh.
but den in sch valerie cried =[ sob. sayang~ lol =p
hmms. lalala. ..

i planned a bit for the chalet thingie. but jelyn dun wan Bbq. she wanted chalet.
chalet 1 night 100++ so exp~ Bbq got food. den 100+ no need buy more food. den more ppl can come. hmms
i dunno lah. but i wuld prefer the bbq lohs.
she oso veri cute =__=
ask her tell her aunt dat she come celebrate den got chalet. i paying (a lie!) den she say she dun wanna lie.
cos she said she scare kanna grounded. hmms. can understand lah. no one like to be grounded.
but if chalet, den no need to invite ppl le bah? some more, if now chalet, end of year how?! =(
ah yah~

lalalalalalala~
dar dar. muacks. strawberriee kisses*
haha.=] thx for the gifts and the lipstick. love`em. love`ya too.

11:51 PM

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boo.hmms.
dar dar sleep liao le bah. =]
he pierce his tongue today. ouchiee.
hmms. means that we cannot.. hais.. u noe.. wahkaka. jk.
he can`t eat.
it`s so painful!
i`m nv going to pierce mine.
even if i wished, my mom wouldn`t let me.
thx~ mom~
haha.
it`s going to be our 4th mth soon. veri fast hor? =)
who says i can`t have a long relationship?
although not yet very long.. but..
my longest liao! =D
round up 4 mth.
my first 3- digit days of a relationship.

other den dat, i`m having serious stomach ache.
whenever i eat something. my stomach will ache.
i think i`m gonna die.
how am i going to valerie`s hse tml!?
hmms. lalala~
god must bless me!
i will have medication befor going. hope i don`t puke on my way.
it`s gonna make me look yuckie isn`t it.
hmms.

today in maple very funneh.
kiwi87kiwi asked me..
"wads yr age" "18 already?"
=> i`m 15. why?
"i see. "

"if 18 liao can marry me le mah"

wahkaka!
gimme a break lah. den i play with him lohs..
ask him beg me. with flowers and ring. mayb i will consider. *cross finger*
he begged. den everyone was looking. so pai seh
but den.. =__=
i told him something. wahkaka
i told him i`m les! wahkakaka!
he was like.. "normal. but i hate butchs."
=> ''why''

"cos they snatch my woman away"

AHAHAHAH! funny boh?! i was like.. haha..
i wanted to say i butch.. ah ya.. but dun wan la. lol..

YEEKUAN! play maple.. no GB play le play maple.. lol.
joann, if u got play, add me =)
=> lovesmoo (aqualia)

lalala.. "lalong lalong~ selling blue legolia.. for only 80k mesos."
haha..

mr.loong said, cash discount is to encourage ppl to buy more.. not i giving discount le hor! 80k cheap liao oH!
haha bye all.~ i`m going to have my rest now.

and wei kiam, all the best for yr new life without maple. =)

-bitchyness loves her moo moo-

2:10 AM

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this incident happen to a gurl in singapore.

after hearing him promissed to call me back later, i hung up my phone. knowing that he`s going to do it again. i have nothing to do that will help stop him. i received a call from his house. it was his best pal, staying at his house who i use to be jealous with.'' he is crying buckets now." followed by a shout from behind. " hold on! he cut himself!"
all i could reply was 'ok'. den hang up.
is it going to be deep? is he going to die?
i'm very bad. am i? i've hurt him once more.
i do know he was worried. but why did i have to do these!!
hatred began to grew inside me.
i wanted to do the same. but i dun wanna leave him.

*beep beep*

it was an SMS from the friend.
'he`s crying buckets now. i really don`t know wadda do.'
my heart is feeling empty.
i want to see him!

i ran to my mom. telling her my friend is going to die.
i wanna take a cab down to his house. but i can`t seem to kind any!
i ran the whole street trying to find one.
Finally!
i hope on a cab and asked the uncle to drive as fast as possible.
This is my first time i am so worried.
Pictures of him with blood covering his hands showed up, just like the sadistic pictures he took before. wad am i going to do!
after i get off the cab, i ran as fast as possible to get there.
hey, i do remember the road there... do i?!

when finally i got there, and finally, sweating and going into his house.
i was forced to get hold of my tears. i dun wan the situation to get worst.
there he was. with blood dripping. floor, wall, all over him. the towel he was holding was also filled with his blood. it`s all fresh red. it was terrible!
No gurl! no tears pls! i was feeling so sad.
i looked at him.
hugged him. his blood printed onto my shirt. gave him a peck on his cheek.
"honey, please speak to me."
although he is still concious, i was worried.
we typed alot of things on the hp.
comunicate on it.
i realised that he saw his frien`s hp when i typed " i think i`m gonna break up with him....."

don`t worry now.we`re ok.=]

-edited by:
Sin Ying

8:58 PM

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I think i`m too sensitive.
Not knowing my feelings have been so hurt myself.
for her staying over at your house.
i know dat u are juz helping her.
but how long is it gonna end?
ok. i noe if i were to confront u.
u will say dat i think too much again.
ok. i`m toking to u on the fone.
u can stop here. i dun wish to tok bout it anymore.













I can`t believe it.
yes. i`m feeling nth now.
a little bu xi guan bout her staying over thingie.
not use to listening to her laffter behind yrs.
don`t u find lately, u and i tok bout de things all not veri happiee or lovey- dovey anymore?
no longer like be4
nope.
not wishing to quarrel nor b-up here.
dun wish to hold it anylonger.
jo-n they all brought up my feelings.
" how can u still smile to her!"
yes. i nv say i like her. i oso nv say i dun like her.
"they noe u better"
this sentence, u said dem.
i don`t think so.
sms her in front of me. ok. this is nth.
having her go wherever u go. wad is this? even when u have to meet me at my house here?
PHS apd day, all of us dunno she was coming.
jessica said i think too much too. my conclution be4 was 'yes, mayb'

i noe she got bf.
wad the diff?
i hav one too.
she is rich. she can buy the whole world for her bf.
i dun need u to do the same too.

since she`s staying in yr house.
u have much more smiles and happiness glowing in u.
although i said i did not kind, and i didn`t wanna care at all.
I DO! i am sensitive. i am jeslous.
wad life is this to me?
having a gurl sleeping beside u.
laffing with u.
playing and having fun with u.
bring much more happiness i culd to u.
going out with u wherever u go.
now, half of yr room goes to her.
how did u Xpect me to go over?

if u did`nt realise.
i was silent.
all i heard was 'weii...'
den was like. 'wahahhaa'
yeah yeah. lot of laffter.
i tok to kiam u oso dun like?
i didn`t tok much already.

'who`s dat gurl wit yr dylan?'
how u suppose i ans them?
smile and Xplain?
"oh! juz a girl pal of his staying over at his house."

i wrote too much...

10:48 PM

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