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TOHSINYING.yzanne *]]
attached & unavaliable *]]
Going 16 soon *]]
17 sep 90 *]]
Naval base secondary *]]
Food & Nutrition *]]
hand chimes *]]
i love and am loved *]]
gaga over uu *]]
crazy for uu *]]
hyper passive *]]
easily low too *]]
smile *]]
i`m happy with what i have ^^*]]

[x] to love and to be loved - }}
[x] to be cherished & doted - }}
to be understood - }}
[x] not to think too much - }}
no one nothing will stop me - }}
[x] not to be yixiangqingyuan - }}
[x] be cared and concerned - }}
no heartbreaks - }}
[x] not be cheated - }}
[x] not to be zhizuoduoqing - }}
[x] be missed - }}
no medication - }}
w 900 i - }}
N 80 - }}
MP3 - }}
2 GB MMC for w900i - }}
plastic cover for w550i - }}
new headset for w550i - }}
new pierce - }}

Jessica aka kakacrunch }}
Jayven aka toot^kia `baby }}
YeeKuan aka Angeline `mei }}
shaun aka kai xin guo }}
KY- aka fei mao }}
Val 09 aka cOwkimOo `kor }}
k-zai aka heimawangzi }}
Alison aka CrabisOn }}
Candy aka konghuilian }}
Jia wei aka lavanderr `nanny }}
Fanne aka Fannanna }}
kelson aka lemon boy }}
Rainy aka bbaby`x }}
Vashonz`14 aka xBabYx TigGeR }}
sinying`s happiness }}
What i did, for love.. }}

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I asked u if u wanted time to seperate us.
no reply.
i dont wanna break up.
but,
u hanged up my call.
u dun do dat last time do u?
i dun wan u to leave either.
i`m gonna go crazziee.
u`re typing 'hahaha' and 'lol' with tears in yr eyes.
i can tell.
u lost yr words?
i lost mine.
but,
u dont noe.
i`ve too lost my mind.
yeekuan is angry bout me.
my mom doesnt care.
my dad goes 'lalala' whenever my mom said something.
my sister is annoying me.
my life had gone all mixed up.
and now,
finally,
eu*..

my tears had dried.
no longer dried in my eyes.
they`re at the sides of my mouth.
cant u feel it?
there it goes again.

i hate ur display pictures.
mayb we shld tok.
but when i saw yr screen in msn.
my eyes and fingers went all numb.
they just dun move.
i cant type.
my mind`s black.
there`s nth to even tell me wat to do with this.
situation like this had nv shown up.

if u will be happier without me.
no more stress from me.
no more bites and scares and cuts.
i dun wanna be yr bitch.
i feel dat it`s someone else.
dont mention about tigers,
i hate them.
they chase after me,
ate my heart.

i saw it in her* blog.
i felt jealous.
why are my hands so itchy!
last tym, i clicked on xiao x** `s profile.
i feel the same.
now,
why mus my hands click on 'it' on the blog?

it all feels the same.
once stupid.
forever bennuren.

nii chong lai mei you zhe me dui wo.
zhe shi di yi ci.
cold.





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