{PROLOGUE}

TOHSINYING.yzanne *]]
attached & unavaliable *]]
Going 16 soon *]]
17 sep 90 *]]
Naval base secondary *]]
Food & Nutrition *]]
hand chimes *]]
i love and am loved *]]
gaga over uu *]]
crazy for uu *]]
hyper passive *]]
easily low too *]]
smile *]]
i`m happy with what i have ^^*]]

[x] to love and to be loved - }}
[x] to be cherished & doted - }}
to be understood - }}
[x] not to think too much - }}
no one nothing will stop me - }}
[x] not to be yixiangqingyuan - }}
[x] be cared and concerned - }}
no heartbreaks - }}
[x] not be cheated - }}
[x] not to be zhizuoduoqing - }}
[x] be missed - }}
no medication - }}
w 900 i - }}
N 80 - }}
MP3 - }}
2 GB MMC for w900i - }}
plastic cover for w550i - }}
new headset for w550i - }}
new pierce - }}

Jessica aka kakacrunch }}
Jayven aka toot^kia `baby }}
YeeKuan aka Angeline `mei }}
shaun aka kai xin guo }}
KY- aka fei mao }}
Val 09 aka cOwkimOo `kor }}
k-zai aka heimawangzi }}
Alison aka CrabisOn }}
Candy aka konghuilian }}
Jia wei aka lavanderr `nanny }}
Fanne aka Fannanna }}
kelson aka lemon boy }}
Rainy aka bbaby`x }}
Vashonz`14 aka xBabYx TigGeR }}
sinying`s happiness }}
What i did, for love.. }}

Afianne
37pence
Juvenile Casualty
Squared Pretties
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I KNOW EVERYTHING!

and i dunno anything too. =X
i dun wish to know anything.. better off being a sha gua bah?
i wanna know de, i dunno. i dun wanna know de.. eu* tell me a lot.
eu* said i childish everytime i tried to make u smile.
i realliee realliiee put in a lot of effort le.. but i always failed. i tried tickling u.
i tried to hit u softly at yr stomach and joke with u.
i tried to remind u of our happiee moments.. but i failed!
i asked u to change yr nick, because i wanted and hoped real hard to see something that has gotta do with us.. juz us. i know i culdn`t get bball outta yr life. i dun wan to. i saw u play. i heard u play. i heard bout how ppl said about yr bball skills.i know u love it.

i know that friends are more important den me. that is y i did not block u from going out with them or hanging out with them.
i know that family is more important den friends. u cannot lose them.
i also know that bball is MUCH MUCH more important then family. mayb it`s the other way round. i dunno...

it`s easy for someone to fall in love with another. but it`s very hard for someone to gain feelings for someone. espeacially after so much fight and misunderstandings.

if everything was to start over again.. i wuld chose not to let u know my feelings for eu*. i rather keep everything to myself den let u suffer with the sensitive and unreasonable me.

i realliee wanted to know.. how important am i to u.. who do u treat me as.. most importantly, i want to know, how culd i change myself to make our relationship better. dont tell me i`m stupid. i know i am.. but this ways good.. good..

i might be angry.. might be sad now.. i dunno.. i want to sae.. i really need u..
she bu de fang qi ni.. is my reason not to be abgry with u.. i feared that once we quarrel again.. i might lose u.. again..

tears i cried for u.. scars i carved for u.. that`s all nothing. just treat me better. i don`t need u to be handsome.. i just want u to love me like u do. i dun mind u scolding me when u not in mood. i dun mind u scold me "go die lah" or.."childish!" or even "ni zhe ge ren hen qian ma leh!".. i dun care although it hurts me deeper den u think.. i dun care.. all i want is for u to love me all over again. i`ll do anything for it.. anything.. cos i know that i am meant to be 'ben nu ren'.. forever..

i hope that u din see this post.. although i told u i`m updating blog. dun tok about it in front of me.. i will tear.. i already teard the whole nite after reading the letters u wrote to me be4 september 05. i missed them.. a lot.; the words u used inside. :( i know i can`t change u.


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