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TOHSINYING.yzanne *]]
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Going 16 soon *]]
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hand chimes *]]
i love and am loved *]]
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smile *]]
i`m happy with what i have ^^*]]

[x] to love and to be loved - }}
[x] to be cherished & doted - }}
to be understood - }}
[x] not to think too much - }}
no one nothing will stop me - }}
[x] not to be yixiangqingyuan - }}
[x] be cared and concerned - }}
no heartbreaks - }}
[x] not be cheated - }}
[x] not to be zhizuoduoqing - }}
[x] be missed - }}
no medication - }}
w 900 i - }}
N 80 - }}
MP3 - }}
2 GB MMC for w900i - }}
plastic cover for w550i - }}
new headset for w550i - }}
new pierce - }}

Jessica aka kakacrunch }}
Jayven aka toot^kia `baby }}
YeeKuan aka Angeline `mei }}
shaun aka kai xin guo }}
KY- aka fei mao }}
Val 09 aka cOwkimOo `kor }}
k-zai aka heimawangzi }}
Alison aka CrabisOn }}
Candy aka konghuilian }}
Jia wei aka lavanderr `nanny }}
Fanne aka Fannanna }}
kelson aka lemon boy }}
Rainy aka bbaby`x }}
Vashonz`14 aka xBabYx TigGeR }}
sinying`s happiness }}
What i did, for love.. }}

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HAPPIEE BIRTHDAY EDWIN~

hmms.. todae, chat with cousins bout a lot of things.. and i know dat i oso missed alot of things.. haha.. all of them grow up le.. cheng, dada, taco, and niu nai.. haiis.. only me haven grow up.. still so childish bah.. haha.. they grow up as in.. relationship lorr.. they know how to handle le bahs.. even if he gotta break up with her on v.day, he stood up right telling us that it`s not her fault.. haiis..

he had promised her not to cry in front of her.. he didn`t.. he cried in front of us.. well.. not purposly lahh.. but i saw his tears.. seriously, why dun we cherish our loved ones? and den regret it after dat? everyone had experience liddat.. but who will know the ans?? hmmms...

As for dada, hmms.. DADA BIIAN SHUAI LE WOR~ SHUAI GE NEHH~ lols.. even if he not shuai until ppl will go.. "WHOA~~ SEE!! SEE!! SHUAI GEE~~~" but den.. atleast he made me say he bian shuai ge liiao.. lols.. hmms.. jia you wor.. long time nv see u le. take pic oso dun wan take.. excuse for not taking is cos u ugly =.= diiaoo~ kiam pa..

hmms.. taco.. got gf le.. lols.. mux cherish ahh.. 1/2 year le.. dun be like me.. haiis.. jia you for O lvls too~ dun end up hopeless and helpless like me. LOL~ wan study can always gimme a call.. although i not good lorr. hahaha~ got notes mux fen xiang!!

nai niu! mature a bit lahh~ lol.. grown up le.. dun worry man.. yr sch no one crush on u nvm.. outside will have de.. u r a good guy.. trust me.. hahas.

lols.. they are more like pals to me.. i know them well.. so sometimes.. xD i dunno how to put it..
hais.. ppl who dunno how to cherish them.. haiis~ nth to say.. hou hui ye tai chi le..

bout myself lehh.. though in our conversation got alot of things i say they agree de.. but i still think i only 1 haven grow up. haiis.. still wanting them to make me roll on floor.. still wanting them to tease me like small kid bah? LOL hmms.. missed the times back then bah.. everyone so crappy.. so annoying xD lol.. so funneh oso. every weekend.. 288 bball court.. haha.. den taco house.. all the energy music.. k one.. 5566.. lols.. we were the closest wor~~

but den.. now.. i was dragged down alot le.. go out with friends more le.. tok on fone.. online play maple.. chat.. blahh.. den haiis. shu yuan liiao.. haha~ anyway.. you shi zhao wo!! mei shi ye ke yi zhao wo!! lol.

same goes to all my friends bah.. sin ying steady pom pipi de.. jux that sometimes thing do pop out and den ruin everything.. lols..

for yiyang lehh.. hmms.. i dunno wadda say lah.. but.. i wan to go back to the time we cannot seperate.. like glue liddat~ lols.. i went to read yr blog the other day.. the older ones.. april2005 de.. read everything.. from that time de till now de.. and i realised it`s my fault.. my mistake actually.. now i wan 'mi bu' everything.. but dun have chance le.. hope u can fall for me again.. i cannot get over u lorr.. cousins all ask me.. "den u can get over him not?" 1 or 2 say "can de lah~ not 1st stead wad!!" the others listen..

"no.. cannot.. *tear dropped* haiis.. *whipps* i oso dunno wad to do.."

"ah yah.. cry oso no use.. he oso dunno u crying.. find someone who know how to love u"

"if that easy to get over i will.. if steading with some1 who loves me deeply helps i will.. i tried liiao.. cannot help.. haiis~"

den i started to sing "till i get over u".. by christina mailian i think.. den start to tear a bit.. but den.. taco made fun of it den make us laff like hell~ hahaha.. taco forever happiee de.. but sometimes i wonder if he stress de.. even if he does, he uses a funny and joking manner to tell us.. :) ni zhen haoo..

wo hen xing fu.. although the one i love dun love me le.. but he did not forbid me from loving him.. hmms.. try to woo back bah? lols.. change myself.. to the perfect one for him.. haiis..
i have cousins to make me burst into laffter.. got god mama and god papa to encourage me actually.. my godpapa made me know how important and wad points i have.. he made me moved on.. :) bout my cutting and not going home thing.. he understands them well..

"yr parents doesn`t know how to say sorry.. that is their mistake and it`s their problem.. dun care bout them cos i believe u have yr problems too?"

"i feel that they dun love me.."

"if they don love u still got other ppl.. like me and yr godmama.. if we dun love u i wun b toking to u here.. if yihong 1/2 like u, so independent good le.. haiis.. u have yr own good points.. u have to let them know it.. they r busy.. they see u only at home.. so they dunno how good u r compared to other ppl's children.."

see~ my godpapa nice right? :) next time he old le i dun mind taking care of him and my god mama~ :) but i know my godbro and sis will de~ lols.

hmms.. hao bah.. wo hui rang ni kan dao wo biian le.. i realliee did.. :) hope to spend more time with u.. and oso my cousin.. den yah.. :) lols.

we will b togethere de..

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