{PROLOGUE}

TOHSINYING.yzanne *]]
attached & unavaliable *]]
Going 16 soon *]]
17 sep 90 *]]
Naval base secondary *]]
Food & Nutrition *]]
hand chimes *]]
i love and am loved *]]
gaga over uu *]]
crazy for uu *]]
hyper passive *]]
easily low too *]]
smile *]]
i`m happy with what i have ^^*]]

[x] to love and to be loved - }}
[x] to be cherished & doted - }}
to be understood - }}
[x] not to think too much - }}
no one nothing will stop me - }}
[x] not to be yixiangqingyuan - }}
[x] be cared and concerned - }}
no heartbreaks - }}
[x] not be cheated - }}
[x] not to be zhizuoduoqing - }}
[x] be missed - }}
no medication - }}
w 900 i - }}
N 80 - }}
MP3 - }}
2 GB MMC for w900i - }}
plastic cover for w550i - }}
new headset for w550i - }}
new pierce - }}

Jessica aka kakacrunch }}
Jayven aka toot^kia `baby }}
YeeKuan aka Angeline `mei }}
shaun aka kai xin guo }}
KY- aka fei mao }}
Val 09 aka cOwkimOo `kor }}
k-zai aka heimawangzi }}
Alison aka CrabisOn }}
Candy aka konghuilian }}
Jia wei aka lavanderr `nanny }}
Fanne aka Fannanna }}
kelson aka lemon boy }}
Rainy aka bbaby`x }}
Vashonz`14 aka xBabYx TigGeR }}
sinying`s happiness }}
What i did, for love.. }}

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Yes.. i`m gonna cry for many many days..
mayb carve a lil'bit..
mayb torture myself a lil'bit..
den get over it..
hmms.. yupp.. i mean it..
u can leave wadever is not necessary for u and go off free..
every pieces of memories..
i`ll take them with me.. i wun remind it to u again..
dun cos of me dun dare love other ppl again..
though i might hate that someone.. but i`ll get over it.. dunno when but i will..

i know u have been enjoying the companionship ur friend or someone else had given u..
but.. as a frien or not.. have u thought of where i am?
for all the days, believe it or not.. when i`m alone.. i have been trying to regard u as my frien..
but i ended up crying pitifully everytime..
even now i still am.. i have the anger in me..
i dunno how to cure it.. carve will help?
i will nv cut deeply.. yes.. i ham ji bah..

nvm bout it le.. i will jux take everything alone bah..
i know u fall for ppl easily.. i know u will love her alot de..
pls.. whoever it is.. make sure she cherish u..

someppl might think i post all these to grab ur attention..
i dunno if i am doing it.. if this is wad i have to do to make u look into my eyes again i will..
but i dun think this is all i have to do..
u might fall for someone easily but i know for u to fall for someone again is very diff..
so i dare not try..
haha.. i`ll keep our things low..
dun wan show other ppl that u have some irritating childish freak to bug u bah?
hmms.. won`t de..

i`ll do what u want me to do. everything.. even if now u`re the one who wanna cut my wirst.. i`ll let u do it.. hmms..

no matter wad.. everytime i sign in my msn.. i see yr last time de msn.. haha.. so sweet back then.. in my memories le.. haha..
can see it whenever i want to.. glad enough..

nvm.. everything i bring with me.. no matter i`ll b alive or dead.. wo hui ba quan bu de hui yi dai zhou de.. :) fang xin..

i added yr testi.. asked u wait.. i delete le.. i delete our pic oso.. haha. dun make ppl wu hui lahh.. liddat everyone know me liiao.. the good for nth childish irritating freak!! lols.

yah.. lately very hard to understand me? i oso dun understand myself.. cos i lai ang bah? lols.. excuses haiis.. nvm.. mayb yr counsellor only dun wan see u sad and stressed up or smth.. yah u are right.. after i choose to b yr frien, cos i wanna try my luck again bah.. cos u told me feelings did came back!! but i got rid of it again.. :'( haiis. nvm nvm.. so, yah i wanted to b yr frien.. willing to take the stress and pain to become yr frien.. but all u replied wad "den dun be." LOL~ so painful lehh.. shuan le bah.. haiis.. haha.. listening to jia gei wo.. and thinking of 220406. 0822pm. my happiest moment after every quarrels.. didn`t expect yr feelings to fade dao wan liao.. 0.00% left of feelings for me.. i really dunno u dun love me le.. thats y u reject me everytime.. that is oso the thing i was trying hard to find out after asking u all the irritating questionns.. haha.. finally u told me the ans..

although.. yah.. hurt is comfirmed.. but atleast i know wad i do oso no use le? is me again..
that time u love me a lot.. i dunno how to cherish.. my fot.. now again.. u wanna b my frien.. giving me a chance to prove to u dat i did change better but u see the wrong me.. prove to u that i did a lot to get u back.. prove to u a lot of things.. but too late again.. when i regret le.. say ok.. b yr frien.. u.. haiis. my fot again le..

everything is wo zhi zao de. cannot blame anyone.. ni tai stress le.. wo liao jie.. so, thats y i say leave everything to me..

next time u see me, wan say hi not, wan wave not, wan joke not.. all u decide bah :)
i won cry in front of u or beg u or anything liiao.. cos i tried and i know it`s of no use at all.. haha.. toopid of me. lols.. that time u asked me "den how?" i shld have said "dun wan break "
now oso too late le bah? nvm..today de moon look sharp to me.. got 2 sharp ends.. hmms.... lols..

i will still continue the plan i planned.. but think i will change the subtitles a bit lorr.. haha.. may that b the last thing i do for u bah. :)

7:02 AM

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