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TOHSINYING.yzanne *]]
attached & unavaliable *]]
Going 16 soon *]]
17 sep 90 *]]
Naval base secondary *]]
Food & Nutrition *]]
hand chimes *]]
i love and am loved *]]
gaga over uu *]]
crazy for uu *]]
hyper passive *]]
easily low too *]]
smile *]]
i`m happy with what i have ^^*]]

[x] to love and to be loved - }}
[x] to be cherished & doted - }}
to be understood - }}
[x] not to think too much - }}
no one nothing will stop me - }}
[x] not to be yixiangqingyuan - }}
[x] be cared and concerned - }}
no heartbreaks - }}
[x] not be cheated - }}
[x] not to be zhizuoduoqing - }}
[x] be missed - }}
no medication - }}
w 900 i - }}
N 80 - }}
MP3 - }}
2 GB MMC for w900i - }}
plastic cover for w550i - }}
new headset for w550i - }}
new pierce - }}

Jessica aka kakacrunch }}
Jayven aka toot^kia `baby }}
YeeKuan aka Angeline `mei }}
shaun aka kai xin guo }}
KY- aka fei mao }}
Val 09 aka cOwkimOo `kor }}
k-zai aka heimawangzi }}
Alison aka CrabisOn }}
Candy aka konghuilian }}
Jia wei aka lavanderr `nanny }}
Fanne aka Fannanna }}
kelson aka lemon boy }}
Rainy aka bbaby`x }}
Vashonz`14 aka xBabYx TigGeR }}
sinying`s happiness }}
What i did, for love.. }}

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Lately de me got serious mental problems liao.
val kor say it`s state of depression.
cos it`s like. i cry, i also dunno why i cry.
mood suddenly low. dunno why too.
it`s gonna spoil my friends de mood around me.
it`s gonna make ppl hate me for it.

Mayb god heard what i prayed for?
to make others happy. she me dou ke yi.
others refers to all the people who know me.
important ppl is my mei-yeekuan. baby-jayven. shagua.
why? cos they seemed strong. but the fact that. when they`re alone.
no one wld know what they`re thinking.
they seemed like smiling but no one knows if they really are happy.

dunno why. things keep running trough my head endlessly.
i oso dunno why. it`s like. none of my prob actually.
or mayb it`s my prob.
think think think. then think of what baby told and ask me ytd.
and of cos think of what i asked her.
and.. I FORGETTEN EVERYTHING!! xD
think i`ve drank too much wine. -.-
well.. think so much mei you jie guo de.
don`t think so much oso will think de.
hao xin ku..
no matter wad i think. in the end i will be stressed up.
break down. den very very xin ku.
promise is a promise. don`t know can keep how long but i`ll try.
cannot punch walls. cannot cut. cannot do anything to hurt myself.

sorry ppl. i showed attitude this morning.
i didn`t know what was going on with me.
was feeling angered and dunno what happen to my mood too.
when kiam said that i was dumped by k* i was angry.
like.. who said that we even started? -.-
i diao him then forgot what i did le.
well.. i dunno le lah. mood swing mayb?
but in sch.. val said its depression! i don`t wan!
like.. i dun wan depression! :(
haiis.. well.. this kind of things cannot say don`t wan then don`t wan de.
i want to warn myself.. not to sink in to another 1-sided like/love/relationship.
don`t go like someone whom u know won`t like u de.
don`t go like someone whom u know u won`t be happy with.
ppl like me. and -uknowwho-. alot alot of ppl..
like wrong le ppl. did eveything just to catch some attention from someone u like
did things just to make sure he/she think of u even for that few seconds.
nope. i did not do much.
and that i oso don`t want to admit that i liked someone.
i oso dunno how i feel. mayb like le. i dun wan admit.
mayb dun like. only cos ppl disiao den i think too much.

it`s been only like few weeks since i made noise about my ex.
so fast gotten over for someone new? too fast le bahx?
i`m not sure too. mei you ba wo de shi qing. wo bu xiang chang shi.
i don`t wanna know if someone like me. i don`t wanna know if someone wld miss me.
i just know that i want to be loved and to love. i dunno when and who it`ll be.

don`t treat me too well ppl.
not worth it. only make me think think think.
den outcome is not what i thought somemore -.-
dots. dian dian dian..
i bu xi guan ji mo bahs.
bu xi guan mei you ren ai.

i know how hard isit to like someone who doesn`t know.
i know how how is it like to see them in other ppl`s hands.
i know how it feels to see them treat other ppl other den u nice nice.
i understand those feelings.
so, no matter how life wld be like in yr life.
i`ll be here and there and everywhere ard u*
my hp hotline is 24/7 on de.
operating for u* only. haha!
so no matter what. takkare. come find me anything.
wld be in class every recess don worry.
but remember DO NOT ask me anything wor -.-
hope u* know i`m toking bout u* wor. LOL~

-rang yi qie de mei hao hui yi piao dao nao hai li
jing jing de shang shuo zhai xin li
rang hui yi yong yuan liu zhai zhe li
bu xiang rang ni zhi dao wo ji de de na xie hui yi-

-for u* only~ lols.

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