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TOHSINYING.yzanne *]]
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Food & Nutrition *]]
hand chimes *]]
i love and am loved *]]
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crazy for uu *]]
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easily low too *]]
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i`m happy with what i have ^^*]]

[x] to love and to be loved - }}
[x] to be cherished & doted - }}
to be understood - }}
[x] not to think too much - }}
no one nothing will stop me - }}
[x] not to be yixiangqingyuan - }}
[x] be cared and concerned - }}
no heartbreaks - }}
[x] not be cheated - }}
[x] not to be zhizuoduoqing - }}
[x] be missed - }}
no medication - }}
w 900 i - }}
N 80 - }}
MP3 - }}
2 GB MMC for w900i - }}
plastic cover for w550i - }}
new headset for w550i - }}
new pierce - }}

Jessica aka kakacrunch }}
Jayven aka toot^kia `baby }}
YeeKuan aka Angeline `mei }}
shaun aka kai xin guo }}
KY- aka fei mao }}
Val 09 aka cOwkimOo `kor }}
k-zai aka heimawangzi }}
Alison aka CrabisOn }}
Candy aka konghuilian }}
Jia wei aka lavanderr `nanny }}
Fanne aka Fannanna }}
kelson aka lemon boy }}
Rainy aka bbaby`x }}
Vashonz`14 aka xBabYx TigGeR }}
sinying`s happiness }}
What i did, for love.. }}

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ahhhhhhhh~
what happened!! seems like everyone who visits my blog knows what i`m going trough.
hmms.. yupp.! dunno why so many things happen within hours.

ytd night..
cos of stm.. he forgotten everything -.-"
somemore.. wants me to say EVERYTHING to remind him.
hmms.. well in the end i did lorr.. told him bout it..
den remind him bout what he smsed me in sch ^^
well.. it was sweet lah.. i got them in my hp muahaha~
after that.. was like thinking thinking bout dunno what things too.hmms..
cannot get to sleep. den received his sms at 3+am. xD
though all the things inside is so.. saddening.. but then..
i forgot the bad ones~ lalalalala~
hmms.. yup.. wo shi bei zhen xi teng ai de ben dan zhu tou xD
shhhesshh! my xiao mi mi ooh! dots...!

hmms.. that day at F&N class de sms oso sweet. wahkaka~ i went mad over it. hmms..lols

well.. but questions kept spinning in my head xD
-what`s the differents between like and love?
(i know that it`s diff. but what diff?!!)

hmms.. the rest of quest.. jux now know le -.-
hmms.. i oso feel like asking.. "since when?"
lols. but dun wan lah.. better not know..

hmms.. kinda found out that he can`t get over ooh. hmms.. it takes time de..
i understand bah.. cos i`m liddat be4 too..
hmms.. i don`t like time limitations..
i want things realistic. as in.. u`ll get over it someday de.
dunno when. mayb when that day comes. u`ll fall for someone else.
future de things very hard to say de.
just don`t wan stress up bahs.

i wrote in my letter to yk.
something liddat..
-xiang yao he ni zai yi qi
rang liang liang de feng qing qing de da zhai lian shang
bi shang yan jing xiang shou you ni de zhe yi miao
zhai wo zui jiao qing qing de zhong xia wo men de di yi ge xiang wen-
-bu xiang bu xiang zheng kai yan
wo hai pa yi qie dou shi meng jing
zhi dao ni xiao zhe shuo wo sha
cai yi yi bu she de ba yan jing zhang kai le-

lols. not that nice oso? -.- i forgot what i wrote in the letter le. lols.
all i know is.. it`s beautiful when u know the kisses meant everything the other party wants to say.
but for ppl like me.. ben ben de.. dunno what the meaning.. xD

- i think i love you, ai jiu shi zhe yang
cos i miss you, xi huan ni shan liang. pei ni qu guan guang, hui ou er chao jia, cao lei le shuo tie xin de hua.
i`m falling for you, ai jiu shi zhe yang
now i need you, xiang deng ni fang jia yao yi qi fen xiang, jing wan de xing guang . dang ni shuo yao shou bu xing fu... bu da yang...-

but i like the part.. the.. -dang ni chu xian wo shen pang, jiu gan jue ai qing de zhong liang- and the.. -qi shi ai wo bing bu fu zha- lols.
lalala~ hmms..

after the tearings during physics.. felt better.
at MRT station dere waiting for train time, saw my own wrist de thing. hmms. dunno y got tear -.- wu liao.
den.. when aaron kor ask me smile that time.. i thought of .. when see him face sian sian de time. i`ll use yk mei de skill.. the chnl u advertisment..
think liao got tears again -.- sot le.
came home and bathe for A VERY VERY LONG TIME.
let water spray on my face. den.. cold cold de water..
den sees the wristbands got back to normal colour le. lols.
bathe out le saw yr sms and baby de missed call.
hmms.. i know baby know alot le -.- so kpo of cos will know.. lols. jkjk.
sms bout the 3 mth thing.. den ask me find other ppl. i`m very angry at that time.
want 3 mth or dun wan me de. so angry. qi si ren.
den.. ah yah~ i duno lah.. qi bu dao duo jiu.. xD
den fold the stars lorr.. den cut dao hand again -.- lucky nv bleed lols.
den fell asleep somhow. lols~

now then i know. that idiot like me too. that time don`t dare to anyhow guess the feelings of others. and so i didn`t. haha. now know le. hmms.. ^^

final conclusion bout today is.. it`s hard to hold back tears..
but it`s harder to type a smiley and send it when u`re tearing. -.-

DON`T U EVER SAY SORRY AGAIN!
i don`t wan.. thank you oso don`t wan -.- lols.

and den.. no one says guy mux support their gf de ahh.. sha gua de leh! ah yoo yoo.
mayb i childish still xD still xiao mei mei de mindset.
so i don`t wan ppl support me.
that time de hp.. i oso dun wan le ahh.. lols..
pays for my expenses sometimes i dun mind. those cheap cheap de.
the rest i den dun wan. too ex de gift i very hard to accept de hmms..

i like small small sweet sweet de surprises. no need spent much $$ on me de lorr!
haiss yoo yoo..

wo xi guan zao shang shou dao ni de sms le ooh~
and wo ji de ni de wei dao. haha!!

VIRGO>>
Nobody is an island -- it's an obvious statement to say that you need relationships to get you through life. Other people provide the acid to your base, and can often be a perfect sounding board for your ideas. But in order to make the deep connections you need for total honesty, you must develop trust. The only way to do this is to take a risk and let someone in. So reach out today -- lower your drawbridge and invite someone to cross your moat.

^^ hao le lah~ i very loh soh liao lorr!~ anyways.. YK.. ty ehh.. ^^

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