Saturday, July 29, 2006
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Thats the songs i`ve been listening to.. i`m listening to them now. i like the 1st, 3rd, 4th and last. ah yah! all i like. lols. ytd val asked kelson sms me. cos i told her if kelson sms me, i`ll go to the concert she wanted me to go. But what kelson smsed is not what i wanted!! why would val want to do that! she knows i`m going to be extremely sad over it!! i hate her and i still do. why mux val be so selfish !! all that, i know de !! i really know!! no need u to remind me right? if u think i`ll go cox of kelson sms me this kinda sms, then u`re wrong. If kelson sms me those like she used to.. makes me feel cared, and missed.. my mood would be better isn`t it!! then i`ll go isn`t it !! i hate u.. i`m suppose to be hyper!! and val, u`ve extingushed my last hope of hyperness. now i`m dead!! i feel dead!! and i hate u!! yes, i`m childish!! but aren`t u too selfish? u only think of yrself!!
I still want to wait for her sms all day. Although she might have forgotten bout the "l*ave" and "l*ve" thingiee.. That same day, she said she liked me. was so happy. but, she said she couldn`t love me. cox, liking one and only. yi xin yi yi. she still loves her ex. and i understands. So, i told her, if one day, she has no feelings for me at all, she finds me irritating, sms me "L*ave"..
BUT, if she got over her ex le, and has feelings for me, sms me "L*ve" and i shall reply with an "o!!" hmms.. yupps.. i`m afraid of the leave. really.
alot of things i`m keeping to myself. she doesn`t know de. cox.. sinying is hua chi. feng kuang de xi huan shang le ni. ben ben de deng ni de sms. sha sha de xi guan ni. xian zai, wei le ni, xin bu gan qing bu yuan de, bing bu de yi dei fang le ni.. haiis.. today, shall reveal everything, since u no longer can view my blog le.. :)
In my purple de diary,
-wo you le xin de ren shen..
though bu shi fei chang de happy..
ke shi, shi you tian tian de wei dao de o!!
wo, ai shang le yi ge, he wo yi qian yi yang de ren.. ta rang wo you tian tian de gan jue.. dan, wo zhen de bu liao jie ta de xin, dao di zai xiang she me.. wo jiao ta, CaCl2..-
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i gotten over dylan last month. looking back at the posts i`ve made, think i`m so stupid. xP me, tried to stop myself from falling in love. stop myself from liking someone. told myself not to think too much. but, i`m still fallen now. i told myself not to think too much le. but i did. i did my best not to!! -.- i`ve did my best. xP sorry.. i`ve fallen into yr trap. she can`t get over her ex. asked me give her 3 mth, but also asked me to go for other ppl. heartache man.. no choice, she said it, can like her, but try not to love her. :( i`m weird. so i can`t be like others, i don`t know how to use simple words to express myself. sometimes, i wld come across some songs which can express my feelings out. then shall sing it out instead. -.- yupps, only ben dan cai hui xi huan shang sha gua (thats what u sent me long ago). when u said u like me, i`m very very happy oh!! but, why keep on pushing me to others? :( got ppl wanna jio me so? now, i only like one and only one person!! i`m not that shui bian de. i don`t want. when u attemp to to send me away, i felt like crying oh! well, i did xP when u said u don`t care about me, when u asked me to let go, i feel heart broken.. :'( But when u treat me well, i`ll be hyper again !! soft soft de smile from u would be able to make me smile. a small compliment from u would be able to make me laugh til i faint!! If one day, u said u love me, i`ll fly !! sinying is the world`s da hua chi !! xP but, will the day come? cox of my height bah? only friends? i`ve cried.. T-T Now, i also don`t know how u felt bout me, or think bout me.. i feel like chopping away my legs ah !! don`t dare to ask if u missed me. don`t dare to ask u alot alot of questions. cox, i don`t wanna hear stuff which would make me cry xP baby still told me, you really really wanted me go find other ppl. i thought i`ll be drunk.. but i remembered everything :( is me who asked her to reveal everything de. but.. haiis.. !! you, don`t want let me xi guan you so nv sms me leh? u busy bah.. right? ^^ hmms.. ytd, u went out with friends ehh? but u`re sick what !! :( drink more water and rest well. really miss u lotsa!! 1 week since i met u !! xP sha gua..
The rest of post is in my MOBLOG diary, which is not with me at this moment.. it`s in class.. i`ve written like, everything there.. hmms.. i remembered everything !!
no.1- u`re heartache for me. u`ve asked me to promise u not to cut.
no.2- u asked me sms u when i reach home. u ask me guai abit. u don`t wan me get wacked again.
no.3- east coast night. u said u like lemon honey. i rushed to buy lemon and honey and try out til my lips turned numb. -.- didn`t know how to get there but i did in the end. lols.
no.4- the hug. though u said u dunno why. the 'strawberry' i gave on yr arm. the pillow. the moment where u layed on my legs and asked if my leg turned numb. "sha gua shui bu zao..".. "wei she me ne?".. the miss killed kiss..
no.5- on the bus, when i finally slept like a pig ! when i open my eyes, i saw u looking at me somhow -.-
no.6- not forgetting.. yr 1st letter to me ^^
no.7- i forced u to say u missed me. u did !! and.. u asked me to smile cai got dimples.
no.8- yr morning sms. and night sms. ^^ the way i wld wait for it. lols.
no.9- dustbin. "don u even throw me away".. "bites zhutou neck"
no.10- i remind u i like u. cox of yr STM!! -.-
no.11- esplanate. penknife. -.- u took towel and water and cleaned up for me.
no.12- the bracelet i made. the watch u wore. the wristbands u wore.
no.13- the word i wrote on yr hand. i grabbed on yr hand but don`t dare to hold it. u brushed yr tumb against my hand when u sleep. lols.
no.14- the missed killed kiss. i didn`t miss kill le. but u said u didn`t feel anything. -.-
no.15- thx for letting me sing ^^
no.16- i hugged u to sleep. u kinda.. hugged me? i remembered yr smell. and the way u tried to grab yr coat and lay it on my back. the way u grabbed my shirt. the way yr chin touched my head. the way u brushed yr finger against my hand while holding them. the way u made me felt cosy..
no.17- the way u made me waited the whole night next to the big big stone till i bth den dropped dead!! -.-
no.18- the way u sms me in chinese and told me if i have good mood and appittie is cox u missed me. if not means u miss me i nv miss u. lols. ^^
no.19- the way u reply me "hahax. zhutou"
no.20- the zhutou u drawn for me. send me by mms. lols.
no.21- the way u asked me if i missed u..
no.22- the way u said i laugh like small kid and said it was cute.
no23- u reply my sms and told me u were eating pineapple. lols
no. 24- the way u cared. u told me no lemon no alcohal and no acidic drinks.
no. 25- u said u unreasonable. hahas. u angry bout me cox i didn`t wan listen. fact is i did!!
no.26- the way u made me worry for u. bout yr leg
no.27- sms me. morning. long time didn`t le!! ^^ so happy!! lols. the way u ask me to sms u when i missed u.
no.28- the sms which u asked me not to make u worry for me. ^^
no.29- i asked u if u missed me. u reply:"if no then won`t sms u le" i was happy!!! u 1st time didn`t say no. -.-
no.30- u asked my to takkare and drink more water. the way i would ting hua...
i`ve summarised those things down. of cos.. there are somemore.. hmms.. all thses.. i still hope they`ll come back one day.. wo ben.. wo sha.. wo bai chi..
- wo bu xiang rang ni zou. xin zai tong lei zhai liu. ni na me jue qing, na me ren xing, wang ji ni de chen nuo-
a lyrics from one of the songs i`m listening now. -.-
wo zhen de hen xiang ni. i want to stay. :( i`ve chose to believe that u still like me. u don wanna hurt me bu letting me wait so long. u want me to forget u cox u feel that letting me wait not good. cox got ppl out there will be happier for me to go. u feel sad too. u jux don`t want to let me feel miserable. thats why u chose to lie to me. u still missed me. u feel uneasy when u can`t sms me like be4 anymore. cos if u were to sms me, i would not forget u lik u planned. u`ll be thinking of what i`m doing, like i am now.. u feel uneasy not receiving my sms. (u once said, u like reciving my sms) and i swear that i would sms u no matter wad. not now..... hmms.. haiis!! :( i believe that u feel that, everything is moving too fast, like i did.. so, it`s easier to let go now be4 it`s too late.. before i fall more for u.. thats y u so she de to throw me away!! someone tell me i`m right. T.T
haiis.. say real.. i`m not the kinda girl u all think bah..
if before u LOVE me.. i found someone who LOVE me.. i`ll go to the someone else if u have no strong feelings for me too.. haiis..
u`re the feeling of happiness and xin fu i feel. now that u`re gone. the feelings are gone too. yi qie dou bei ta hui yuan dian. yi qie dou hao xiang mei you fa shen. zhi shi zuo le yi chang er mong er yi. so now..
SIN YING IS GOING TO DREAM ON !! i hope i will never wake up.
i`m still waiting for yr^ sms.. till now.. i wake up every 1 hr or so from my sleep last night. i looked at my hp everytime. i don`t wanna delete my inbox.
i`m suppose to eat med le i think. cramps are kinda back. i had coffee fri morning. 3 for 2.80 if i`m not wrong. bought 3 lohs. i know i`ll get stomach ache de. but felt like drinking dunno why too. lols. whole morning, drink coffee. hmms.. then in the end.. cramp.. now still cramp.. this morning.. LEG cramp.. then now is the... liver bah? xD dunno which part lahs!! dun care liao. lols. fever. whole body ache now. cox of ytd de batminton too. long time since i`ve played. thats y -.- dots lah! i`m going to isolate now le. takkare ppl.
12:39 AM
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