Sunday, August 13, 2006
Alright.. first things first..
070806
someone asked me, if it`s possible to have feelings coming back for HER. but seriously ahh.. she`s happy now? and i`m happy now? so, i don`t think so. even if yes, i guess it won`t be long. -.- i`ve changed. from bad to worst. zzz. i donno how or what i did. but i guessed, i`ve really changed.
080806
SANTOSA~ woohoo~ was soo looking forward ahh !! all wear jersey wor. lolx. but the thing is, i didn`t get tanned lehx !! hopeless de suntan lotion !! grr~zzzzz. walked to shuxin and yk til 090806 morning. talked bout ALOT OF THINGS AHH!! haha. MR.OOO lolx.!! so funny ahh!! and.. talked bout jack and hamster -.- so KE AI. zz. then 090806, yk siao siao. walked shuxin home. zzz. grabbed me along ahh. lolx. then took bus home alone by myself. bathe liao sleep le. zz.
090806 -national day...
alot of things happen wor.. went to watch movie with kimzhi and baby..
then met up with kimzhi de friend go esplanate.. wanted to see fireworks de.. but then, ended long ago haha..
then they went play pool.. zz.. i underage and dunno how to play some more.. so went find yk they all le lohx.. like planned..
but then.. i walked around the whole of esplanate area lahx !! cox.. wanted meet up with shaun then walk back meet yk they all.. but then.. walk ard liaox.. feet wanna rot liao.. still didn`t find shaun !! somemore, yk they all say BRIDGE. how many bridge i know? -.-"
when finally met them, it`s like.. GRRR!! but then.. after that cooled down liao cox i not xiao qi.lol~
chit chat chit chat. then took pics. bekah so ento to take pic with everyone. -.-" actually ALOT of ppl there.. didn`t expect to see kai sheng that group. didn`t expect to see isreal iscac they all. dunno got spell wrongly not o.O chunzhi and bekah i oso didn`t know will be there. dots...
then, i didn`t talk much there lahx.. not attitude or some thing.. jux like.. suddenly nothing to talk bout sia. lolx. shuxin val and dunno who went to see the xdresser.. chiobu wor !! the pic i saw.. hmmx.. hahaha !! then after that talk to yk. then shuxin a bit. then realised. shuxin didn`t sleep much worr !! HAHAHA !! singapore got alot panda. alot cao kou ai yue tuan!! lolx..
after that wanna go home cox.. late le mahx.. somemore shuxin hungry.. -.- then.. some say BUS cox mrt no more. then some say MRT cox still have.. then BUS also like.. no bus go yishun liao.. wdls de bus oso missed -.- nearest to my house de bus is cck/bp there de bus. then finally got yck de bus.. 1/2 wan go up. 1/2 dont want. DOTS !!
IN THE END.. MRT -.- rushed all the way cox left 5 mins. all run like mad childrens. haha!! then.. i dunno what i said wrong lahx.. mayb that night my tone to u* abit bad.. pai seh lahh.. haha.. then u stomp off i was like.. wtf !! was a bit angry too.. shuxin see my face black black then confronted me.. ask me what happen. i didn`t wanna say a thing.. zz.. Xchange secret.. the secret is.. "i not sure my ez link card got money left not !!" lolx.. xD in the end heng heng.. got.. left 60cent i think zz..
SIN YING IS CURRENTLY "UNAVALIABLE". -.-'
only some knows what i`m talking about yah? WAHAHA!! it`s unbelievable but.. un huh.. that`s it. lolx.
100806-holiday !!
i forgotten what i did liao. -.- END !!
110806
pon tan sch. lazy go school. lolx. met up with yk and val they all. pass yk things. then after that wanted find shuxin but she playing bball. hmmx.. then went home after some craps and letter passing thingiee. -.-"
changed HP with my sis. in the end.. SHE DELETE ALL MY INBOX DE SMS WOR !!!!!! SOB !!!!! inbox so many stuff !! she liddat jiu delete !! :,(
but, it`s not a bad thing anyway. -.-" well.. dunno liaos lahx. was angry lahx !! inbox she kpo delete for what !! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..
120806 -bad bad day.
use comp till 2 plus.. toot called me mahx. then chat lohx. daddy came home ard that time too. drink alcohal.. then guessed he`s a bit seh diao liao. came in to the comp room and scold me. dammit. was angry lahx!! slapped. whacked. what else cld he do -.- hang up on her cox i don`t want her have bad impression. zz. lucky.
after i hang her up.... daddy wasn`t happy cox i didn`t off the comp like i said i will after i TAGGED. but seriously, my comp was searching for updates !! it can`t be blamed!! whole comp was damm laggy!! then he don`t believe. stangled me.. pull my hair with another hand and throw me outta the comp room. i knocked aginst the wall -.- dramatic?! got more lohx !!
mommy came out. saw dad strangling me and punched my face. pushed my head knock wall. all mom said was "mai ah ni kuan lah!! computer shut down ai xi gan eh!" i was angry with dad. i really DID shut down liao lohx !! knn.. he punch punch.. then strangle harder -.- as if he was gonna kill me.. DRAMATIC?! got more !!!
i angry liao. tell him nicely.. "u don believe u see the screen !! OPEN YR EYES AND SEE IF I GOT CHEAT U !!"
then he slap me -.-" then the comp shut down.. and then he was like.. pushed me on the grown.. dragged me go room and then throw me to bed. ask me sleep -.-
then later he dunno what happen.. pull off my blanket then like.. wanna pull my head out of the body liddat!! strangle and den slapped me again -.- grrr.. dramatic not? lolx.. this time wasn`t the comp. it was.. "who u tok to!! u tell me.. where he/she from !! ask he/she come out !!".. haiix.. come out is sure die de. who will tell him who i talking to ah. i not 3 yr old -.- then i dun wan tell him. i say "friend" nicely..
he punch me ah !! say what, "mei jia jiao? parents dun care is it? why so late still find u chat" zzz. hello !! as if his daugther not doing the same? -.- then i let him strangle. punch. slapp. whatever he wants. sis and mom tried to stop. no use de lahx. xi guan liao. i cry only cox why he dun believe me at 1st. i told him le "daddy, wo chong lai mei you bian guo ni..". in my family, trust is a lot. i dun wanna cheat my daddy cox from young til now i know, alot ppl cheat my daddy de money and alot alot ahx. haiix..
awhile later, i thought he come back again wanna hit me liao.. i was like... -.-
but turn out that.. my dad come sayang me.. tell me what he feels.. and tell me what he expect from me. it`s only like.. few things i have to do just to be the perfect daughter he wants. he got into wrong campany, he dun wan me to follow. he got cheated cox he dunno english.. he nv study.. he dun wan me to b the same. his money was cheated. what can he do ? haiix. cheated by own family members.. it`s bad but thats what happen to my dad. he wants us to live better.
My dad was working for himself. boss. electrical sub-contractor. he earns alot that time. he was cheated. i dunno on what.. then everything changed.. whenever i`m home from school. i`ll see him sitting at the sofa. no work? -i don`t dare ask. cox it`s obvious.
one night, dinner time, i walk pass a group of my dad`s last time frien.. daddy was toking to them awhile.. i dun like them.. tattoos all over. smoke. drink. bengs.zzz
i asked daddy who they were. daddy said, "friends". zz
not long after that, dad found out who cheated his money and run away. i over heard him.. "1 arm 1k. 1 leg 1k. the money he owe me i mind as well don take ! i trust him so much *blah blah blah*.. the money give AST ginna drink kopi ah !" i was like.. :(
from young i know my dad well. i`m not scared of the gangsters out there. cox i know, my dad`ll be there. youngsters doesn`t even know what gangs are about. -.- their leader who they also dunno. -.- so... i`m not scare.. i got my dad.
daddy very important to me. so, i wanna pass my o lvls somehow. take once cannot then take twice. i wanna find a job that pays well and let the ppl who cheated my dad suffer. i know who they are. and i remember.. don`t make me find u ard.. idiots..
my dad won`t be able to see this but..
"daddy, wo zhen de mei you bian ni. wo zhi dao ni yao de shi she me. dui bu qi, wo bu neng gei ni. ke shi wo hui jing li. wo yao rang ni he mama bu bei bie ren kan bu qi. wo shi huai hai zi, mei ni men xiang de na me guai, ke shi, wo hui guai de. ying wei wo zun jing ni."
^^ dramatic enough le ? lolx..
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